citrakayah: (Default)
About a week ago I moved back to Carbondale for college. This worked out less well than I'd hoped, since I was assigned to share a room with someone who had a dog. I could deal with the dog at least in theory, but the cat who I was bringing with me could not.

So I got moved downstairs with three other people, where I immediately discovered that the kitchen was not sanitary for preparing food, and that I was sharing the place with someone my mother happily decided was a "bookish law student." Over the course of a week he proved to be anything but, as in addition to leaving the caps from his beer bottles out on the porch, he cursed us out for complaining to management about the mess in the kitchen, and eventually decided that he was an "alpha male" who should not have to deal with the "beta male" (me) "getting in his face."

So I got moved again, this time to a three bedroom unit, with two people I actually get along with--they also get along with the cat. Thank goodness.

Laptop is currently broken, so I'm using public computers until it gets fixed. Don't know how long that will be.

First lab meeting is next week on Friday. I'm definitely looking forward to it--I miss being able to help with research.
citrakayah: (Default)
Summer is going well so far; I actually have work experience now. Currently I'm not being paid because the university has no money because Certain Individuals Who Shall Not Be Named defunded Illinois (university budget is getting slashed by 40%, IIRC). Everyone's pretty pissed about it.

My internship itself is pretty awesome. Right now we're doing an experiment to determine how heavy metal pollutants affect fish larva survival if nighttime cooling is eliminated. The fact that some of the fish die is pretty horribe, but the survivors are released after their most vunerable stage and I'm hopeful the data will be of use to bluegill populations.

There have been a couple BLM demonstrations recently, and there's one scheduled for tonight. At one of them some asshole tried to run a protestor over and carried them a good few hundred feet before stopping. That particular asshole currently has a smelly car and got punched.

I'm going to the one tonight.
citrakayah: (Default)
Fall semester is over. Classes went very well, to the point where I'm eligible to get back on Honor Roll. Next semester I'll be taking nearly all biology/zoology courses, which I can only hope goes as well as it did this semester. Right now I'm trying to get into a herpetology seminar--one that's normally not for undergrads--but I should be able to get in as soon as an override can be issued.

All my professors were competent this semester, even if I was frustrated by the English professor's insistence that splitting infinitives was grammatically incorrect.

Saw The Force Awakens. It was good, but drew pretty heavily from the original trilogy, and I think that weakens it. Even if they had to, for some reason, recycle the "destroy a giant superweapon before it destroys us" they could've at least not made it just a bigger Death Star. And the way it operates is just absurd, as is the fact that the weapon firing is visible on the random planets the heroes are on.

And people say Star Trek doesn't make sense.

I tried alcohol for the first time recently. Hated it--I tried two fairly sweet red wines, but the taste of alcohol was just too much. I think I managed to get tipsy off just a few sips, too, though that might have been a combination of placebo and drinking on an empty stomach. And I'm a lightweight.

I'm pretty sure Pumpkin had more of a tolerance for alcohol than I do. Silly cat would try to stick his face into beer glasses whenever he got the opportunity.

Missed Hannukah, unfortunately. So no latkes and gambling for me. I did get to Skype my parents, though.
citrakayah: (Default)
I'm back at college now, and getting back into the routine. Not that that's always easy, but I'm doing a better job of it than last year... I hope.

Have five classes--Animal Diversity, Alternative Media in Diverse Society, Intermediate Analytical Writing, Principles of Genetics, and Chemistry--most of which I think are going fairly well. So far the subject matter seems fairly straightforward in all of them, with one exception.

That exception is Alternative Media, which has more jargon than seems necessary, which also raises the question of why COMMUNICATIONS majors have textbooks which seem indecipherable, and which seem to use far more complicated language than is actually necessary. I have this textbook by this Chris Atton person which is incredibly dense. The other textbook appears to be easier to understand, thankfully.

Of course, it may be that it's a 200 level course and I didn't take a 100 level course in the same class grouping (Speech Communication 101 was similar though, I suppose). In any event, if I run into major problems, I predict they'll be coming from that course.

For Animal Diversity I will apparently have to do dissections, but I'll live--unless I faint and break my neck on the way down, but that's unlikely. I really don't buy the rationale behind it, since I just don't see how this is actually necessary, but I don't have any real choice. And the instructor (and the TA, who's in charge of the lab) doesn't either.


Jun. 17th, 2015 12:52 pm
citrakayah: (Default)
The cat died recently. Well, one of the cats, the orange one. He was old, I forget how old exactly, but still old. But he was my favorite cat. I still remember him curling up around/under my head when I was younger like he was a pillow, a great big fluffy orange pillow.

Lately he hadn't been doing so well. He'd lost weight and all. But even when he fell into what my mother says was probably a coma, even when his gums were swollen and he was completely unresponsive and having what I'm pretty sure were convulsions, he didn't die. He lingered for days. I tried to watch over him, but much as I hate myself for it, I couldn't be with him always, I just wasn't emotionally capable of it. Which I should be, given that I'm 20, dammit.

So we had someone kill him. The nice way to put it is that we had him "put to sleep," but I prefer to be frank and brutally honest.

So I say that we killed him. Because we did.

And even if I don't feel agony right now over that decision, even if it's half a week later and what-not, even--or maybe especially--if I'm relatively unemotional... I'm not sure I can make my peace with that.

Not sure if I should.
citrakayah: (Default)
Been a month since I last wrote anything. School has been difficult, to say the least. My brain feels like it is full of fog, and doing anything not school-related that takes actual thought and willpower is hard. I could be doing worse, no question about that, but I have a good deal of inertia keeping me in place. The more I'm inactive--anywhere--the harder it is to get the ball rolling again. I'm a creature of habit, after all. And currently the habit is "crawl into bed, blow up enemy ships, and do absolutely nothing."

Which I hate.

I did get a review paper on isopods done, which was interesting to do. Had to do a lot of reading, and learned a lot as well. Among other things, I learned that Bergmann's rule has a long and checkered history, that most people think giant woodlice are cool, and that deep-sea isopods are not nearly as terrifying as old nacho cheese Doritos.

Other students in ZOOL 215 are doing their projects on feral cat colony management, the role of venom and bacteria in Komodo dragons, and turtle evolution. The first and last did fairly well, the middle one did not do enough research. I say that because in the question-and-answer session I asked about a possible test for bacteria uptake that seemed sort of obvious, and she said that that would be a good idea and someone should do that test. When I got back to my dorm, five minutes on Wikipedia linked me to a paper that had that very setup.

Despite the season, it's been cold lately, and it rained heavily today. I was caught outside at the beginning of it; I let volunteer hours slip away from me and I'm having to do a whole bunch at once. And because I'm an idiot and I suck, I missed the bus, so tried to walk over to the Science Center to volunteer. Naturally I got completely lost, but ultimately I did manage to get there... so good for me, I guess. Even if volunteering at the Science Center isn't the most pleasant task, what with all the loud children, it's something.

Formally changed majors from architecture to zoology, and have an appointment on Monday to talk about the possibility of doing field/lab work for graduate studies. I'm skeptical of my chances, given my lack of training, but it can't hurt.

Read some good books lately. The Virals series, which I've always liked, had two books I hadn't read, and some guy named Charles de Lint wrote a trilogy called Wildings which was pretty interesting. Also found some pretty... interesting... music by a person named Vertigo Fox. I usually hate the genre he works in, but the lyrics and general feel are interesting enough to overlook it.

Oh, and apparently we have MRAs on the Werelist. Granted I wouldn't expect anything different from the person who believes that plants "evolved beyond the use of brains," but still, it's rather frustrating.
citrakayah: (Default)
I haven't been doing that well lately. For the most part my issues are academic in origin, but I'm a college student, so that affects everything else. So when my grades suffer, or I feel like I'm not doing well or understanding the material well enough, I get depressed, I start to seclude myself... These days, it feels so hard to care about anything, and I feel powerless, useless, and flat-out stupid.

One thing I do know is that I'm not cut out for architecture. I've dropped one of my classes, ARC 242, which was a woods class. I liked that class. I liked the teacher well enough, I liked the lectures... but when it came down to it, I just wasn't capable of doing well in the class. I'm still taking Pyramid Guy 2: Electric Betelgeuse, aka ARC 232, but only because taking both classes will get me a fine art credit. Which I need.

I've also learned that when it comes down to it, I am very much a coward. Rather than deal with the possibility of humiliation, I flee. Not entirely surprising, but still a problem.

So I don't know entirely what I'm going to do. I do know that I'm transferring to zoology, and that that might help somewhat. I know that I won't be going into architecture, and that a fundamental part of my identity is gone--as fundamental as my identity as a therian, or my identity as a skeptic.

Architecture was how I justified my own existence, and how I avoided going insane from the knowledge I had. My belief was--and still is--that if we as a society are ever going to amount to anything of importance, anything that lasts, we have to broaden our horizons and be willing to work with any other sapient species in the universe. Also we'd have to avoid not wrecking our environment. In any event, we had to more or less get over our own egos and stop seeing ourselves as the center of the world.

Space--not outer space, but the environment around us--shapes how we relate to each other and the world. When I see something like Faner Hall, I see something that, in addition to looking like shit, was antithetical to the ideals I believe in.

A long time ago, I decided that that would be my mission--to design buildings that were closer to this, and attending architectural classes, I was always struck by how buildings that I considered absolutely abominations were praised. Seriously, there was constant praise for the same philosophy of design--and the same exact person--that produced this. That was what Corbu would do to Paris. Meanwhile, the terminology and phrasing used in describing designs, and design philosophy, frequently seemed overcomplicated.

But I can't do that anymore. I know that I will die. I know that everyone I love will die, and we shall all cease to exist. I also know that unless we somehow beat the odds, the universe will die. Ultimately, even if our legacy manages to survive the Sun's death, nothing will experience it. Nothing will benefit from it, nothing will look upon it and say, "This is good." We might as well have never existed.

I don't know what, ultimately, my path will be. At the rate I'm going I won't have much of a significant one, since both this and last semester I haven't done so well in class and this naturally causes crippling levels of anxiety and lack of confidence to the point where I wonder if I'm at all suited for college.

Granted, I don't have to decide for a while, and I need to focus on getting my life straightened out first, but not having certainty is... scary.
citrakayah: (Default)
So we were presented this scenario in my history discussion section.

In December of 2014, one of the remote provinces of our nation (the Republic of Tanzarundi) became a zone of conflict with the discovery of a key mineral used in portable communication devices. This resource can be sold internationally for huge profits, and the extraction of this mineral will provide many jobs for citizens willing to work there.

Here’s the problem: People already live in the part of the province where the mineral is located. These people include a few small bands of foragers, who rely on gathering, hunting, and fishing. Transforming this province into an extraction enterprise will certainly disrupt the environments these people need to live as they do now. In fact, it will possibly destroy many of the resources they need (local water supplies and animal habitats, especially) and ruin places they consider sacred. Once the valuable mineral was discovered last November, speculators quickly moved in with the provincial military force somehow getting entangled with different groups of speculators. This led to violence between speculators competing to access the mineral, as well as violence against the local forager groups. When folks throughout our nation heard about this, many went to protest and to create human shields to try to protect the foraging groups and the places where they live. It’s messy with the potential to get really violent soon. But there also appear to be possibilities for defusing the conflict without more violence.

As the advisory council to our national government, we need to determine the course of action for this crisis. Right now the people of our nation are not sure what we should do, and most are likely to support whatever policy we set forth as our course of action. But we have to persuade them that our course of action is ideal for this to work and ensure that we do not set off responses that could lead to widespread disorder and conflict.

Let’s be honest here. This is not really about “jobs/profits vs. environment.” We can let the less civilized nations squabble over such simplistic binaries. And this is not even about protecting the foragers who live there, although we have their most sacred animal as our national symbol on our flag (the irony is just too much, isn’t it?). This is really about us, all the people of the Republic of Tanzarundi, and who we are as human beings. Are we people who satisfy our wants and needs through violence and war because it is a normal (maybe even "natural") thing for human beings to do? Or, are we people who are not prone to make war and can come up with non-violent ways to solve our fundamental problems?

The history of humanity is complicated when trying to determine this matter. We can see conflicting interpretations in the scholarly readings we have to help us craft our policy. This advisory council has designated you as the lead member to define our policy. First, read the scholarly writings on this topic. Second, compose an argument that insists on a military solution using three ideas from Keeley’s writing, or compose an argument that insists on a non-military solution using three ideas from Wells’ writing. Do your best to convince our people that your policy is a true reflection of who we are and who we can be as human beings.

Guess what people in my class defended?

The "Trail of Tears" solution. Because obviously the lives of the tribe doesn't matter compared to the jobs and money.

That was literally their reasoning.
citrakayah: (Default)
So, I'm back at college and trying to get my life back in order. So far... well, I wouldn't say it's been fantastic, but it could be worse, a lot worse. I really do feel as if I'm starting to slowly pull my life together. My class-load for this semester is lighter, which helps, but I do attribute some of the improvement to myself. I still have to deal with some degree of apathy, but I think the medication is helping a bit.

Distraction is still an issue, but I'm getting stuff done anyway, and it's possible, just like always, to force myself to do things. I don't want to spend all day browsing wizard builds on the Pathfinder SRD.

Speaking of which, I made this guy for a Pathfinder gestalt campaign, and he is awesome.

The new laptop is working well. Perfectly, in fact. It's a Lenovo G50, not another Toshiba, and I'm being much more careful with it. This one won't get a furball of mysterious origins stick in the fan, I can tell you that.

Also found a pretty interesting book series by a guy called Jim Galford, which I promptly read. I'll try to post a review of them soon.


Jan. 12th, 2015 09:47 am
citrakayah: (Default)
It occurs to me that, despite having gone to Arizona for New Year's and rather enjoyed myself, I haven't posted about it on here.

My grandmother (on my father's side) lives in Tucson, and the area is probably one of my favorite places to visit. I've always loved the Southwest--its culture, its history, the ecosystem. It's one of the few places with cacti, you can spot lizards and snakes fairly easily, the birds are beautiful, and if you get really lucky you can see a coyote or mountain lion.

Which I didn't, but we didn't do much hiking due to it being freaking cold. In Arizona. Granted, it's the middle of winter and Tucson is at elevation, but it's still freaking Arizona.

Drive over to the Kansas City Airport was fairly easy, and so was the plane trip. Unfortunately, I was an idiot and lost a rather nice leather iPad case which belonged to my father. He was understandably irritated, I felt bad, et cetera. Thankfully they still make the things, but--guilty!

The hotel was pretty nice, emphasis on was. It's fallen into disrepair somewhat--Internet and phones weren't working well at all--but it used to be fantastic, and apparently they're doing remodeling. They also have an orange grove, with oranges one can pick from the tree.

Went to the Arizona-Sonoron Desert Museum. This was lots of fun--it's basically a combination botanical garden, museum, and zoo. Not everyone was out, on account of it being so cold I was wearing a jacket (which I usually do, but I'll get to that later), but a fair number of exhibits are indoors in heated areas, and I did get to see coatis and coyotes roaming around. Both of them have exhibits that use this nearly invisible mesh; visible if you're close to it but harder to see from far away.

They also had this nice mesh/glass combination exhibit that was basically a massive, enclosed river tank. Had fish, frogs, toads, lizards, birds, that sort of stuff. Only saw some fish and frogs, but there were a lot of frogs, and it was cold.

I have photos, I'll upload them later.

We also went to Biosphere 2, which was much nicer than I remember it... even if I'm kind of disappointed that it's no longer a miniature world and is a living laboratory these days.


Oct. 20th, 2014 11:39 am
citrakayah: (Default)
Well, I have discovered that, when you have a prescription for a mild stimulant, you should damn well use it. I haven't felt this energetic in a long time, I've cleared out all my backlog for college, my mind isn't babbling random things at me, I'm not muttering in words I can't understand, and I feel chipper.

Expect to see more of me around on various social sites, and more writing and such.


Oct. 4th, 2014 05:42 pm
citrakayah: (Default)
I'm tired.

My architecture workload is... exhausting. I feel like I barely manage to get stuff done on time, which is indeed the case. Heck, that's if I manage to get stuff done on time; I didn't for the last project even if I had a valid excuse (funeral). I wasn't the only one; half the class it seems had the same issue. Except they didn't have to go to a funeral.

Same thing for the studio class. The teacher is not happy with the class, and I can hardly blame her. I'm not happy with myself either.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm really made out for this, if this is what everything is going to be like. I don't have the mental ability to be that focused on work only. I should be, and every time I do anything except work I feel a bit guilty, but I don't have that ability, even if other people did, because before I never really needed it.

If I'm not made out for this program... I really don't know what I'll do. Be miserable? My entire future, for the past five or six years, has revolved around the idea that I would be an architect.

There are online communities I'm part of, and I want to read what people are writing and respond to it, but I can't for long periods of time. Because I need to work, and it's one thing to do something that doesn't take large amounts of focus and another thing entirely to actually put thought into something.

And short of posting a short inane reply somewhere--which feels kind of insulting--I feel like I can't reply, because I'm using all my mental and emotional energy on doing the goddamn cross section of a house in AutoCAD.

There are replies, journal entries, posts on the Werelist by people who have put a lot of thought into what they're writing. I feel like I can't do similar.

So... burnout, I guess.
citrakayah: (Default)
My grandmother died, which actually is one of the least bad things to happen to me this week, since I wasn't that close to her. If anything, I'm upset because I'm not upset, which is something I swear I am one of the few people stupid enough to actually get upset over.

Random Person: "Are you upset?"
Me: "No. So actually kind of yes."

Wasn't a big deal, though, so I slept it off. Worked like a charm. I will have to miss classes this Friday, though, to go to the funeral.

More problematic is, well, school--Pyramid Guy's teaching methods are as arcane as ever, and appear to be based off some bizarre wizardry that I don't understand, since the questions he gives us to answer during the lecture aren't all answered by his lecture, and he goes over important stuff not in the questions.

Also he spent a lot of time on the test on things he didn't really go over or emphasize in class. When he gave us a copy of the test to study, several of the questions were worded differently (which doesn't sound like a big deal until you realize that the questions on the copy included bits of information that weren't in the test) and the questions were worth different point values.

I have an eight page essay on Cahokia due Monday, for the same class, I might add.

Made a campaign homepage at Obsidian Portal; I'm officially calling the campaign (and the game setting) Terra Chronos.

Oh, and started a writing contest with Mobius on the Werelist to try to pick up activity, because the site has been growing less active recently. There's information here. Essays are accepted... but honestly I, personally, would be more likely to vote for fiction/poetry/similar stuff.
citrakayah: (Default)
My bullshit detector has been hyperactive today!

1. This one was actually a misfire, it appears, but someone put on their thesis statement that we should use regolith for 3-D printing houses on the Moon. Later investigation indicates that this refers to using regolith as a component of a mix that would set into a concrete-like substance, which could indeed be quite useful.

Of course, they didn't specify that, but oh well.

2. We had a substitute professor in Architectural History, and apparently they just walked in and turned on a video, which I mercifully didn't see all of. I say "mercifully" because it was called The Pyramid Code, it was first shown on History Channel, and it managed to trump the average ancient alien rubbish by coming up with new and interesting pyramid bullshit.

3. We have our very own Brother Jed. *goes off to pretend to be an atheist Satanist communist socialist fetus-eating heathen pagan*

citrakayah: (Default)
So, college has started. I’m taking multiple architecture courses, a biology course, and a course on speech communication. So far, the biology couse seems to be the most interesting, even if I will have to negotiate my way out of dissections. Because, if there is one thing I can’t really do, it is dissections of animals. Plants are quite fun to dissect, especially if you can laugh maniacally while doing so.

Went to Philadelphia, and met up with Mobius and Lindiel, who are awesome, at the Philadephia Zoo. Got up to various wacky adventures, ranging from establishing that ducks experience rebellious teenage years to hating Victorian architecture. Also, we are all united in a hatred of small loud children. Also in Philadelphia, discovered the wonders of pub fries with spicy ketchup, high quality gelato, and pistachio cream sauces. *licks lips* And I have found blueberry vanilla goat cheese.

Back home, my mother developed a strange obsession with canning things, which is why there are currently a whole bunch of pickling green beans. I personally doubt it will end well. I also found a whole bunch of vegetarian recipes, which I would dearly love to try cooking.


Found Souls, joined, and have found it to be a great deal of fun. It’s a post-apocalyptic setting where you play a werewolf (canine changed by a virus, not a human altered—humans don’t figure in the roleplay because they’ve been almost entirely wiped out) called a Lupercai. I’m not a huge fan of the limited lifespan—Lupercai can live maybe 18 or so years at most—but you can hang around as a ghost indefinitely, so there’s that. Aside from the ability to transform, the presence of ghosts is the only magic allowed in the setting.

Haven’t gotten any writing done in a while, so roleplaying in Souls could help stimulate that. I want to get work on Spiritwalkers done, as well as expand the game world for the Pathfinder campaign. Currently on the Australia sourcebook, which has:

* a civilization that spans the entire Indo-Pacific region and rides giant turtles large enough to support entire ecosystems
* the point where life began
* cults, cults, and more cults
* references to the Inferno

I hope to also provide:

* details of Sunhill, both its people and structure
* specifics on the Apocalypse Wars
* the full text of the pact between the greatest powers of the universe that prevents them from acting directly
* a discussion on how the Australian spirit world works (I’ll have to study legends of the Dreamtime to figure this out, though it’ll be in broad strokes—but I’ve been calling Australia the Dreamlands, and Aboriginal legends are too interesting not to include in some capacity)
* hints to the Africa sourcebook, as well as the Antarctic one
* details on how raccoons got to Australia


Unfortunately I haven’t been paying much attention to the news, though I have heard what happened in Ferguson, and am naturally quite disgusted. Also rather unsurprised that there are the usual apologists saying, "Oh, we don’t know what happened" (okay, I suppose that if there’s no video of the incident that may be technically true) and "He lunged at the officer and the officer shot him in self defense." Of course, police in this country are pretty much immune from real consequences of their actions.

This is why every single officer should have a body camera attached when they are working. They’d be a lot less likely to do such things if they knew they had a camera attached to them, and we’d be able to point to close up video evidence in every single case.

Which is probably why in the places that did this, incident rates dropped like a fucking stone.


Joined Atlas Obscura, which is full of interesting things, ranging from a bioluminescent bay, to a bioluminescent cave, to a field of lightning rods, to an abandoned missile base, to a place where they keep a bunch of snakes in big outdoor enclosures and use them to produce antivenom. I highly recommend it, and there are even a few locations in Kirksville. Lame locations, but still locations.
citrakayah: (Default)
1. I have two thoughts at the same time. First, I love Rift. It is fun, free to play, and I am harder to kill than a mutant alien cockroach. Second, I hate Rift, it eats up so much time.

Needless to say, those two thoughts cannot both be true--well, they can, but it is dissonance--and I am currently leaning towards being rather angry at myself. Which isn't good, really... I have had a problem with getting disgusted at myself, and it doesn't feel good. Perhaps this can be used for good, but it is still... bothersome.

2. Related to that, haven't gotten to reply to a bunch of entries by other people in a while. If I suddenly show up after a month's absence to reply to an entry, that is why--it's been sitting open as a tab and I haven't gotten around to it, even though I should have.

Also I haven't uploaded what I've written for my LGBT+ history class, even though I said I would. This will be rectified shortly. (EDIT: Actually, I didn't say that, and I'm not completely sure why I thought I did. So forget that last bit.)

3. Classes have been going well, though--been getting A's and high B's. I am, by far, one of the most active student in both World Civilization II and Lesbian and Gay History discussions. And no one really seems to mind. So... moderately confident that I will continue to do well.

4. Been working on various projects. I would say that I will have the Werelist Census of 2013 done soon, but I've been saying that to myself for a few months and there's still that last bit, because I am a lazy bum.

5. I am also working on a campaign setting, with the current area being Australia. It's basically using Earth's map and biosphere--I'm using (with permission, of course) the concept presented here and running with it to create a campaign world. Seven elements, seven orbs, seven planets.

The PCs in the campaign I'm running are going to go to each continent... Australia is their starting place, and associated with the Inferno (elemental plane of fire). Next, I think, will be Asia. The acitan (albeit a tweaked and improved version) will make a major appearance in Africa, and they're already mentioned as having been involved in one of the five apocalypse events the Harbringer of the Apocalypse (a very driven, very forceful celestial) was involved with.

Oh, and did I mention that the Harbringer of the Apocalypse lost one a thousand years ago that ended in severe global climatic disruptions? Yeah, it's that kind of setting... except you don't have to sit down and take it.
citrakayah: (Default)
Back at college, and, rather ironically, that is actually less of a workload for me. Due to various factors beyond my complete control,I was unable to complete the architectural log that was due in ARC 121, so the teacher talked me into accepting an extension. I was reluctant at first because it went against my personal sense of honor, but when it's such a significant grade... well, it's easy to cave. When I have the architecture log back, I'll upload the drawings, and when it's done being graded I'll upload what essays I've written. Mostly they consist of my architectural musings on green walls, Vincent Callebaut, and how I disapprove of UAE dick-waving contests that lead to opulent, giant, sprawling cities being built in the middle of the desert to assuage the ego of a powerful ruler.

Aside from that, though, I did very well with my final grades--I got one B and the rest were A's. Naturally, my parents were rather pleased with this development. I predict I won't do as well this semester, though, because I ended up with a 400 level class... and I'm a freshman in my second semester. I mean, I'm moderately confident that I can pass, but still...

Since I had to change which architecture section I was in, I ended up having to drop out of one class, and picked another. The other class I picked was Lesbian and Gay History 4-something-or-other, which, to my surprise, means that (barring failure), I will get a minor in history this semester. Which I'm pretty sure qualifies me more than some middle school teachers I've had. Oddly, Lesbian and Gay History is GLBT+ History. Is there some rule preventing them from using acronyms? If there is, is there also a maximum character length?

Speaking of which, an academic journal on trans* studies (at least, that's what it appears to be from what I've seen) has sent out a call for academic papers. I'd like to try my paw at submitting a paper, but I really don't have the expertise, qualifications, or knowledge of the jargon--so I'd end up looking like an idiot. Beyond that, I'm not completely clear on where they're going with their idea. There's very little data, so I would be limited to finding essays that explored the concept, of which there are not many.

But hey, if someone else was planning (or is planning after reading the call) to submit a paper, I look forward to seeing it.

The Pathfinder campaign I'm running is going rather well; I've started detailing some ideas for a more exhaustive setting--with major countries, political structures, et cetera--but it helps that I've already got some information--for instance, information on a bunch of Elemental Planes--already written. And I'll probably custom-build some monsters and races. *rubs hands together* I have some very... devious... ideas.

Should be able to get many of my projects--like the Werelist Poll of 2013, a few sections of the Pokemon fanfiction, et cetera--done soon, since my workload is fairly light, at least for now. And you guys should see more of me around; I haven't commented on various people's journals (or on the Werelist) as much as I'd have liked to.

I'm also going to try to be more social IRL, which I hope ends well.

Oh, and I was beating the highest ELO debater on Debate.Org in a tournament debate, but then mysteriously five heavily conservative judges show up within five hours of each other, one of which acknowledged being contacted by my opponent and abstained because the first paragraph of my opponent's argument made him facepalm. So now I'm losing by nine points.
citrakayah: (Default)
1. Haven't gotten enough sleep. Get to sleep at like 12:00 or so, wake up at 6:30 or so. Not cool. Ugh. Kitty needs sleep. I need to be lazy kitty, lounge around, sunbathe, that sort of stuff.
2. Have gotten architecture work done, yay! And it's good, and some of my art that I've done for the course is pretty good. Finished an essay on green walls, focusing on the aesthetics--I covered the projects Dragonfly (which I love), the Tori Tori restaurant (which I love, but would add a nice sweet-smelling vine to the outer trellis facade), and the PNC green wall (which I think is poorly done and tacky).

Haven't gotten the pictures of my mask--which is a face covered with fallen, brilliant red maple leaves--yet. But it was excellent, and a lot of people liked it--and it took me five minutes. What I intend to eventually do, however, is take electroluminescent wire, and use those in a mask, then attach the mask to a green wall backing. It will be best displayed in the dark, of course, with only the green light of the EL wire illuminating the darkness.
3. English 120H is going pretty well.
4. I'm starting a Pathfinder campaign online on the Skype group for the unofficial Werelist Roleplaying Group. It's full, unfortunately, but I expect we'll all have a great deal of fun, and if it goes well someone might run another campaign at some point in the future.
citrakayah: (Default)
So I haven't been on that much, either on the Werelist (shocker, I know) or on other places, mostly because I have a metric ton of homework. Also, there is a spider on my desk. It is spinning a web. I just noticed this. Tʜᴇ ᴜɴɢʀᴀᴛᴇғᴜʟ ʙᴀsᴛᴀʀᴅ ᴡʜʏ ᴡᴏɴ'ᴛ ʜᴇ ɢᴏ sᴏᴍᴇᴘʟᴀᴄᴇ ᴇʟsᴇ I ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ᴀʙʟᴇ ᴛᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴠᴇ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴀɴ ᴀᴘᴘʟᴇ ᴏʀ sᴏᴍᴇᴛʜɪɴɢ ᴡɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ ᴡᴏʀʀʏɪɴɢ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ɪɴsᴇᴄᴛs ᴄʀᴀᴡʟɪɴɢ ᴀʟʟ ᴏᴠᴇʀ ɪᴛ. Excuse the rant, please, it is 9:15 at night. Why am I up so early late? Because I need a lamp. A lamp with argon, and a bit of mercury, so you get that lovely electric blue color, and I need it to be really small so I can fit it behind a mask for architecture. But now it is evidently a bad idea, so I am going to use EL wire. Lots and lots of EL wire.

I've registered on Upsides: Can now download many papers. Downsides: Worried that uploading what I write for college won't be considered academic enough (even if it's a term paper), and also somewhat concerned over adding therianthropy to my interests and following people on there that I know, since that data could theoretically be connected back to me.

Oh, and interesting thing about architecture is that since there's no syllabus what ends up happening is I think something is due tomorrow and it's due next week. Rinse and repeat. Over and over again.

So unfortunately I haven't been too good at keeping up with my friends and things that require my full attention. Things I can do in a minute or so like fixing a spelling error on a wiki, sure, but not journals. My apologies.

Also, the Werelist Poll of 2013 should be done actually it should have been done several months ago soon. Sorry for keeping everybody waiting (if anybody is still even interesting or remembers it). What I currently have done can be found here. As you can see, I've... well, I think that I've improved the format by analyzing the results to a greater extent. What do others think?


citrakayah: (Default)

September 2017



RSS Atom

Most Popular Tags

Style Credit

Expand Cut Tags

No cut tags
Page generated Oct. 23rd, 2017 10:14 am
Powered by Dreamwidth Studios